If I could do it all over again

I don't know that I would.

There are things that I still get frustrated about that make me wish that I had never lost my leg. At those times, I think, "If I had done this instead, then this would have never happened." For instance, if I had gone military then I wouldn't have been in that place at that time. Of course there's, if I'd never gotten a motorcycle..... I also had not been planning to get my bike that day because it was a brisk 44 degrees (I remember)... but I was too excited to wait. Anyway....

My point is that,  I get frustrated about what I can't do, but then some days it just dawns on me how much I can do. I don't mean what I've relearned to do. I mean, the stuff that I can do because I'm amputee. The stuff that it is available to me because I'm an amputee.

Today, I got to thinking my usually deep thoughts while driving...."If I could have a do-over... I don't think I'd be any happier than I am now." A lot of things that are a big deal and frustrating to me now, wouldn't even matter to me. Like the military, that was an old dream that I decided against, because I wanted to please my father and go to college. I want a physical job involving the outdoors, but back then that hadn't even crossed my mind. I always really excelled at physical stuff, but I didn't want it to be my career.

I've learned so much in the last year and a half. I wouldn't be half the person I am if I had never had to conquer depression or self-consciousness or had never had to learn to push myself to my limit and stay positive even when everything seems completely hopeless. This entire experience has molded me into somebody else. At least now I can say that that somebody else is better than its predecessor.